wuturupto??

My dog made me believe that I don't belong in our crib. I have this hunch that my neat freak hubby and our OCD dog are conjoined at birth. My husband laughs at how I iron my uniform (so he ends up doing it for me), while my dog is eyeing me intensely that I am about to make a mess. Huwatdapak!
OK, I came from the planet Yakizurba, I love japanese food, I'm still a coke addict and the best of it all, I love it when I'm in front of my pc and think nothing about tomorrow and just continuously surf the wide world of web. Ohh la la. My hubby noticed that I am not into Journey/AP anymore. I am soooo saturated by it (I'm gonna get hanged by whoever is reading my blog). Some of the (AP)fans are killing me. Thus, I decided just to stay out of it. Nagiging bakya na eh. It's like... loving the old Happy Feet clogs in the 70's better than the Happy Feet being sold at Shoemart nowadays.
I got swayed there for a second.
I am catching up on what's in Itunes and new applications. I love to download games for my Itouch that I can use in my not oh so boring job. But the most awesome dl I got tonight is the Pandora radio station (freelaluh!). With my Itouch and wifi I'll be listening to my AOR.



It's now 0334 hrs. And I'm still going ga ga with my 80's sound. Couldn't get away with it. Reminiscing.
College.

Cramming. Public Health sexy uniform. "Charol shoes."
Barkada. Shakeys. Beer. Ijos. UGH!Vicious cycle.



"When you cant give no more
They want it all but you gotta say no
Im turnin off the noise that makes me crazy
Lookin back with no regrets
To forgive is to forget
I want a little piece of mind to turn to". ~
excerpt from Be Good to Yourself lyrics by Journey

The Art of cooking Chicken Inasal

Sunday is BBQ day. Today's menu is Chicken Inasal (ilonggo guid ini ya nga style!)
Sige....itud-lo ko sa inyo ang recipe ni nanay:
Mix together: finely chopped ginger & garlic, lemon grass, rock salt, and brown sugar, crushed peppercorn.

Then add calamansi, and cane vinegar, mix them together

Marinate your chicken on the mixture and set aside for 1 hr.

In a pan, mix together vegetable oil, 1/2 stick butter, garlic powder, pinch of salt, achuete, and crushed peppercorn. Heat up until you yield an orange tinged basting sauce(from achuete extract.

This will be your basting oil.

Find a cute guy that will do your dirty work.

That is willing to sacrifice himself on a dead summer heat past the hour of 10, and is still smiling. Say CHICKEN!

Ahhhhh the left over! Yum. Thank gawd me natira pa pambaon ko mamaya!


"Lord, thank you for thy wonderful meal! I thought that I've completely forgotten my mom's recipe. Bless my surgeon and my gastroenterologist for taking out my gallbladder and left over stones in my common bile duct. I am now back to my weird eating habit! I say AMEN!" whoooa whoooaa!~mcc

Life in the....

These are the RULES that I would like to say and love to follow, but in actual form, it can never happen.( I really want to say it, but I still have the chance to bite my tongue and not make any kind of sound!). This is my life in the(funny world of) ER. Hopefully, I will not be googled by my co-workers (yer right) better yet, my bosses!
Here it goes:

1. If you (are sick)disagree about the treatments you received in ER because it doesn't correlate on to what you have read on the internet, please don't come in and harass us. I will let your computer do the work and the "net" treat you. Oh yeah! More power to you too.
2. If you come to ER by ambulance, you are going to find a way how to get home after you are released. We don't give out cab voucher (BTW, I really love your big expensive COACH bag!).
3.We don't do pre-op work up just because you live around the corner, and you're going to have your surgery in Middle of nowhere Dallas.
4.We haven't used nurses cap for the last 2½ decades(Did you just got home from Venus??).
5. Please give your child Tylenol or Motrin if they have a fever. I don't need a proof that they're on fire. Have you seen a child having febrile seizure?
6. The last time I checked the word Emergency Department, it is not spelled the same manner as Burger King....therefore, there is no such thing as "Have it your Way" treatment here!
7. Please don't come in to ER because you just saw in the news about Cryptosporidium in the public pool."No mam, you don't have it. You dont get those bugs by just watching tv!"
8. I don't have your old chart in front of me, so you have to tell me (everything)all your medical history even if you come in for sore throat for 1 week.
9. Please don't call asking me if a blood pressure of 169/101 is high and you've been none compliant to your medication for over 4 weeks. First off, I don't answer to medical questions and give treatments and diagnosis over the telephone. Second, I am a very honest person. I will tell you to wait for another 4 weeks and you will know the answer to your question.
10. DO NOT...I REPEAT, do not drink Dr Pepper in front of me while you're complaining that you have a belly pain. Same goes with smokers who comes in complaining that they can't breathe. When I'm ready to take you to your room, Don't request to go out first for the last puff! Ohh Em Gee!
11. Please don't tell me that you are good buddies with Dr. Ek Ek & Atty. Plok Plok, or you're a nurse. It will not in any other way, change the course of treatment. thank you very much!
12. ER is not a drop off center of your old folks during HOLIDAY SEASON!
13. No sireebob! WE never refill narcotic medications.
14. ER is not congruent to OB clinics at wee hours, play off season, and SUPERBOWL Sunday! Sorry, but we don't play pitty party here.
15. Don't threatened me that I have only 1 chance to start an IV to your infant who had been vomiting all day, and that you are a paramedic. I consider myself the best IV nurse,I can find vein even on active pediatric code with almost no circulation, so when you threatened me like an arse on fire, I will find you another nurse to poke your child.
16. YOU WHAT??? You didn't know you're pregnant. Mam, your child's head is crowning.
17. I will not allow you to pay $350 for a pregnancy test. Go to Walmart.
18. PEOPLE...this is not DMV where you have to get a ticket number in order for us to treat you. This is a place where we see people based on the severity of their medical problem. I am sorry, PAIN is not an emergency. It is a symptom.

There are still a lot of rules that I want to remind myself of, but as the shift ends, I have to stop. It is now time for me to go home, and leave this rules behind. Besides, It is only applicable to the chosen few!

"Let me remind you that my work is to nurse you back to your health, and not to be your personal servant!And by the way, I don't care about press F#@*@$ ganey. All I care is that you're walking out of the ER with steady gait, and pissed off, but the truth shall remain. THAT I MADE YOU FEEL BETTER!" ~mcc


side note: When I was admitted in the ER for right upper quadrant pain, my husband noticed that the bedside cart is full of supplies and linens. In fact, it was the very same room that they've used when I was admitted there not to long ago for severe allergic reaction. He said, "they never used this room (pause) ever, huh. Look at this supplies in this cart, they're well stashed and never been touched."
And while I am in and out of my sharp stabbing pain on my side (coz I don't want any pain medicine), this is my response, "beh, you know when your wife and all the night shift elves work, they do a little magic trick, part of it is to make sure that all the carts in each and every room is fully replenished. And yes, we do use this room a lot too!"

......

I am dragging myself today. Just tired and no energy. I will be probably answering emails and have a full blog by Monday or Tuesday. Must be my haircut....I have lost my power. Damn Katie just copied my new wash and wear do!



Di ba!
Kaibahan lang.....mas payat ka lang ng konti sa akin! Hmf!

Chat with Arnel

I know....I know....I am so guilty...but I can't help it. What happened was, I was checking another blog, that has a mirror AP official website shout out box, and it so happened that AP was chatting there (his sn is knellsky), And I got stuck. But I will share it with Ms Vi and for the rest (meron ba?)who are my avid blogger followers (alam ko hubby ko lang) what I've captured today.
After knellsky left, an impostor under the same nickname logged in (unregistered) and left a message to this effect "HERE I COME BITCHES." This was captured right away by GUNBOT in Melodicrock. Came back to AP website and let the chatters aware to correct a forumer....lo and behold...even I scroll or flood the room....they didn't bother to acknowledge me. Why bother right? Enihoot...the message I posted on that shout box was picked up right away by (probably) one of the MR forumer, and gunbot erased his post. Good for him. Ms. Vagabond, this one is for you...feast your eyes over Knellsky! Oh yeah, he was also requesting if he can borrow movies like, 10,000 BC, Bank Job, There Will Be Blood, The Bucket List. Here are some info you might want to know also....#1. His Cholesterol is up, so he's not eating balut anymore, #2. He can go on for weeks with just fruits on his side, #3. he loves ampalaya and malunggay, #4. His son loves Elmo, #5 It was ABS who calls the shot for production casting (so let's not cry over if Sya SYA and Martin screw up his songs,) #5. ? A new album next year? #6. Wants to have a duet with Ann Wilson (but I guess that will never happen), #7. Will never go topless again (sayang), and He is aware about Jimmytt's hurtful comments on his youtube video, but AP said that everybody is entitled to their own opinion.
















A co-worker of mine took care of a young Venetian(not telling you where that is)who came rushing to ER because she doesn't know where her tampon is. She thinks that her boyfriend had sex with her and that it pushes up her tampon (pointing to her epigastric area) and now she felt like she can't swallow. Sporting a straight face, my co-worker reaction was like " Oh my Gawd, you have to drink a lot of water to push it down. Handling over a jug of ice cold water and a cup, she said "HERE FINISH IT UP! I'm sure y'all fell better after this." She turned around with a WTF look in her face, meanwhile, the entire staff who heard the conversation went inside the trauma room, debriefing their ass off.

Samot-Sari

I hate having 2 days off. First off, I lose a day by sleeping until past 8 (yuppers!). Yes my dear, 8pm...that's with a dose of Norco 5/325. I was supposed to work for 8 hours yesterday, but I am still bothered by my post-op pain that's been nagging me for several days now. I am on restrictions of lifting no more than 10 pounds for 2 weeks but with the kind of work that I have, the mere opening of the triage door, and pushing 150 kilograms of fat dead body weight on a wheelchair has taken it's toll on me. And I gave out. Coming back to work 9 days post surgery is not easy.I felt I've walked from Mansfield to Denton.
Before I left from work, I managed to send a funny excuse-me-from-work email to my boss yesterday. I've mentioned that my "tired frail body is giving up, and my right upper quadrant is howling every now and then." I thought she's going to call me for the very informal sick call, but instead, she responded to me in a very funny way.
And now it is past 5 in the morning. What else am I going to do. Hubby and doggie are both snoring, I am about to finish my third cup of yogurt... I think, I've drank to much water.I've Oggled and googled, watched all my missed TV shows...checked my friendster, read the news for tomorrow at cnn.com, re-read my fave bloggers, and here I am.... about to lose another day. I need to drain my energy. I guess I have to start making my schedule for September. Oh yeah, that's a long one. I am one of those who base their work schedule on TV shows.
I take that back, I now work on weekends only. That way I can watch, The Closer on Monday, Eureka on Tuesday, Ghost Hunters on Wednesday, Burn Notice on Thursdays, and Monk and Psych on Fridays. So you see, I have a very busy schedule. Then of course, local network series that I am oogling about, Such as Bones, Ghost Whisperer, Numb3rs, House, Medium, CSI, Criminal Minds. I don't like (honestly) watching any kind of reality shows. I hate it. People do get ugly in these shows in order for them to win.
Crap! It's 0554 hrs now. I have to go to sleep. I hope we can still get to watch "The Mummy" tonight.
PS: I hope I am done changing my blog layout.

One night, I was doing my charge work, when I get a call from a patient that was seen 2 days ago. He said he still have "abominable" pain and "shits" and wants to come back to E.R. for second opinion. I told him "We're happy to see you sir." His response is somewhat irate, "you don't understand, they escorted me out, and this time, I am going to bring my lawyers". So i said, "Sure Sir, you can bring your entire community and 7 lawyers, but please make sure you don't forget to bring yourself in." "CLICK!"
mwahahahahahahaha!

Catching up session 102...by Wiggles!

We can't produce our spawn right away for less than a month, so, we found a cutesy pup...a princess size shi tzu, and we named him Wiggles. He's very adorable, fun, nap loving dog. As you can see on the above pictures,he is very spoiled. And as for me.....I am settled here in the back seat.

That's it!

At this time, triage area is a dead zone, and I am not doing anything for the last 8 minutes....so I will just update my blog about something that I've promised my husband.

Few days ago, I asked my hubby in a trivia manner, on who sang that filipino song playing on his IPOD. His answer was, I really dont care who's singing that or this song, all I care is that it is pleasant to my ears and it is in my IPOD. I dont want to be like you who idolize the singer. Whatever he said, hits me real hard. Here I am, like a crazy fool, fidgeting over someone....crazy over him and a rabid fan in some sort of ways (reading forums, getting into the details, but never been in a fight....as of yet...over a singer not IP grabbing). So, as I promised, I am not to waste any of my precious time, never again will I ever go to forums, chatboards of anykind about my favorite band. I will just listen to their songs or albums. And that's a period!

YEP! I've noticed that AP was holding his back as if he was hurting at DFW Concert. I noted it at least 3 times. I just want to mention.

Shout/Vent Out

I will keep you posted on the catch up that I have to recall, but for the meantime, I have to do my shout out....sorta vent too.
First off....I don't reveal my identity over the internet for the sake of ....well....some people are kwaaaaaaaayzeeee!!! I had few bad incidents in the past, and back in the old old AOL 1994 days.....I have heard chatters killed by another chatter because of "just being rowdy in a chat room". #2~ a lot of lurkers in the webworld that would steal your identity....heck....I was even accused of one today for " STEALING IP!" (Never heard that one before, promise it's my first to be falsely accused of unheard offense ever so yet! Calling snopes.com). Hay buhay! People are making me laugh. Newbies of the internet. The guy who was said to be well respected in some band forums fought for his dear keyboard life against me in a shout out box and my own people (of skin and color) believed him. I proved myself not guilty of some uncalled for piece of crap accusation. In other words...."PAK DAT SHET!" Yun lang.
Whewwww....I felt better now that I just farted all over my blog.
My Big praise to my favorite bloggers:
I salute Brian Gorell for his AUDACIOUS blog. SALUTE!!!
I've read Kitty Go funny book called "When Chic Hits the fan," Awesome....although I have no idea of some people she had mentioned in her book, I googled them out.
And to my blog friend (which she doesn't know yet), Ms Vagabond, you are so absolutely delightful. I've learned a lot from you, specially the avoidance of the loons (and boy i can easily get killed from the crossfires). We will be in touch. I always look forward for your email, and hopefully....to meeting you someday in DFDUH.

Catching up session 101 circa Spring '07

OMG! This is awfully hard. Can't believe that I have a lot of catching up to do. So, I guess I have to do this in several parts. March of '07 when JP moved in with me. Gone are my ear days. My cerebrum is doing it's funny work out in that entire month. We made plans of getting married, and It scares the shit out of me. I am so prone to relationship failure. I was afraid that it'll go wrong (again!!!)and I would end up having another rendevouz with happy pills. I notified my closest friends and some kababayan that we are planning to have a simple wedding somewhere in Decatur, TX on April. Then, we kinda change our mind that we will do it in a hush hush way via VIVA LAS VEGAS STYLE. But then....I don't want a speedy melancholic wedding. I want a simple memory-filled-last a lifetime nup that will last even if I develop an alzheimer memory path. And so it happened. I called up my friend/neighbor (a couple whom I worked with) the day before and told them to meet us up in Arlington. At exactly 10 am, the day of our Lord, 23rd of March 2007, me & JP held our hands together, and in front of the Justice of Peace of Arlington Linda Davis, we said our vows. Unbelievably, she kept the entire ceremony solemn and intimate. JP and I were shaking and teary-eyed. (Literally, I felt my hands were submerged in a freezing water). Even the only couple that we invited to witness our special event were grinning and teary at the same time. After the ceremony, pictures had been taken and we had a memorable lunch at Macaroni Grill with our friends. Today, 1 ½ years later, I still experience that "flutter-fib" excited feeling. It is the same feeling that you felt the first day that you have a date with your biggest crush in the entire world. And everytime I would look at him, I am still awed in disbelief.

"Truly in our lives, the awful events that we have come to experience, is purely a path leading to a more blessed life thereafter". ~MCC~

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee Bee!

Well hello there!!!! Whewww! Good to be back....how long has it been? Over 1 year! Whoaaa!
I've been busy. Actually, I started and continued blogging under friendster website and got stuck there, and couldn't figure out what my email and password I've used in this blog. Enihoo, I am so back and will update you on what is going on with mah so called life!

HAH!

How long has it been??
I wonder if there are some people who still follow my journal.
I was successful in dealing with the holidays and my own birthday by not logging in, and census is still up. How has it been??
Well, as usual a workaholic like me ends up working 2 major holidays. But I went home to the Philippines right after my Christmas shift. I just went home to shower (packed up na ang gamit ko), and my co-worker picked me up and dropped me off at the airport. I got there on time for our 25th year High school reunion. I had a blast. I ate too much on New Year’s Eve and day. The only thing that sucks….I have to go back to U.S. before my birthday. And of course, I have to work, and start my orientation at MMMC.
Busy, busy, busy.
Ha! No love life matter here. Too much information. For now, I’ll keep it away from your probing eyes.
I’ll keep this page boring. I will post my special event around April.

piece of advice....

are the very reason why some people have ruined their relationship.Sa dikta ng ibang tao tumatakbo ang desisyon nila sa buhay.
There's a story about a person who took all the effort he can find to get the opinion of all the rest, but never spoke to the person that was involved and he was concern about.In short, everything went down the drain.
What I've learned from a very helpful source, na kahit anong mangyaring altercation between two people....walang hihingi ng saklolo sa labas. Things will be settled without the opinion of others.So nangyayari, walang nakikialam, walang me disgusto, walang nag mi misjudge ng bawat isa, and so far it actually works.
Well, lapit na naman thanksgiving. I was reading my co-worker son's book (a pre K student) and was asked about what they are thankful for. They have funny, simple and oh so emotionally undeveloped anecdotes.
So what am I thankful for?
I am thankful that I have no regrets in life.
That's it pansit!

Treat...but then I guess I was tricked!

I was supposed to be singing this....."I'll be home for christmas....you can count on me." Someone asked me if I am excited about my upcoming vacation. I was....not anymore. Too many things is going on right now...toooooo much of a headache.
But I'll be there....

I'm tired...seriously tired. Tonight will be my 11th day of work. a day off and another stretch and another 16 days stretch. Kakatuwa. I've taken myself off from my antidepressant, so I have to compensate, meaning, I have to get my mind set to something. Less than 2 months na lang pala. Whew!

Bukas na pala ang Haloween...makapag trick or treat nga sa kapitbahay ko! Me handa daw eh....feeding frenzy na naman ako!

Holiday plans

Somewhere down the memory lane, I remembered about the STATE FAIR. Was excited to see it, but was unable to go....another STATE FAIR will come and go....pero....kakawalang ganang pumunta, but definitely I will be there...next year.

Ahhh....gloomy day...bed weather day...decisions....decisions...should i get that OT tonite or stay in bed and keep my bed warm and toasty. I am saturated with what's going on sa werk anyway. Honestly I just had it.

Decisions, decisions.....where should I spend my haloween. hee hee hee.... as long as I will get my share of my favorite sweets!

Thanksgiving....don't care about turkey....I am sure there will be plenty of it sa ER lounge room, I will just make sure i bring plenty of hawaiian sweet bread.

Christmas, I will be working....no christmas decor sa bahay.....as what I've promised to myself....in pursuit of true happines....until i find that right person,
there will be no christmas celebration.

Then...New Year....another year up ahead of me....I want to celebrate it...with that special someone....

ok...maga na paa ko...pagod na ako...haven't realized im doing looooong stretch of work....my ankles are swollen....

imma rest now....and watch "My Best Friend's Wedding!"

"Courage! I have shown it for years; think you I shall lose it
at the moment when my sufferings are to end?"
Marie Antoinette

Jagged Little Pill

Webeeeee me. I am now trying to keep up with the world. I've been diagnosed with depression recently and my MD put me on this little pill that all it does is to make me sleep. Sleep like I haven't slept for ages. Funny how I can be motivated. There was a day at work that I was so smashed that I have to go home early, afraid that I am going to sleep on my way home. Imagine the drive. Well as soon as I hit home, I just took my work clothes and just crash right away. Slept before 7am and woke up at 6pm then go back to work again and still smashed. As the days goes by, I lost my mood swings, I am hearing better, my understanding to the whole scenario is way much better, and my headaches and back pains are all gone. I still sleep like a log, but oh my gawd.....what a wonderful pill it is. I've mentioned my depression before to my ex's but nobody listened to me. I never knew.....that I've been on denial, and struggling to keep up with the world.
Anyhoot, things are getting better nowadays. I am still in love. How can you not fall in love with this little wootsies
.....they've grown so fast....just couldn't keep up. They love siopao, coke and pandesal. hee hee hee hee. On weekend, treat is ice cream.


Now you tell me, how can you be depressed with this lovable cuddly one?

Estrange

Just over a little a month ago,I've told my co-worker that I was feeling goofy, like someone had spiked up my drink. Unbelievably, I was holding on my BP> 212/102, and continuously worked that shift ( I am a little bit suicidal!). The physician then gave me a script for hypertension until I get to see a primary care. Everyday of my life since then on, was an ordeal. I am the type of person who works in a health care system but does not want to be a client. In other words, a very non compliant hard headed bitch. Finally, after a month, I had the guts to go to a certain Doctor in Arlington,who prescribed to double the dose of my current medicine. I guess I was so highly anxious about all the crap that he is going to find, that I shot my BP off the roof. Trusting doctors are not an easy one for me. Sometimes, I just wish I could die instantly rather than a slow painful one such as stroke and or renal failure. Just a whole lot of things had gone thru my mind.
Still a little bit on denial on my depression but I'm coping. I've learned to approach life by laughing outside, and still hurting somewhere. Suppression had been my game.
My wish...if God can hear or read this....what is Your game plan for me? I wish I knew...because honestly, I'm just so ready to give up.


Today is my mom's 76th birthday (2nd birthday after her death). How I just wish she's here. Probably somewhere, she hears my cries and all the pain I'm going through. I'm sure she's saying....hang in there.... YOU CAN DO IT.

Shhhhhhh

For several weeks now, I've been holding my thoughts on what I should write in my blog. I've been putting all the drafts in mswords then been erasing it, then again, recalling them on my mind.
I am happy that I've been trying to keep my life busy by getting sick and at the same time updating myself for the upcoming HS grand reunion. I've already spoken to one of my classmates, and he made me laugh by describing me " the quiet and who doesn't know how to speak" classmate. He still calls me by my last name. Can't wait to get home again....see familiar faces, recalling the good ol` high school life.
And as for the thoughts that has been nagging my brain for several weeks now.....pushing it aside is better than blurting it out here.