Hybernating

I was busy talking about myself and what I wanted to say....so here I am...
hybernating.

I am tired of my pathological critic.

Bridges of Madison County

...and that just brings back the memory. The movie that caused so much pain in my heart.
Robert...alam mo ba ang tinatawag na "tortured sense of divided loyalties? Yan ang nararamdaman ni Francesca.
natatandaan mo ba ang linyang ito:
Francesca: "I want to keep it forever. I want to love you the way I do now the rest of my life. Don't you understand... we'll lose it if we leave. I can't make an entire life disappear to start a new one. All I can do is try to hold onto to both. Help me. Help me not lose loving you."
Di ba nakakabaliw. Matagal nya itong pinanghahawakan...sa pag aakalang mawawala ito ng kusa. Subalit, sa haba ng panahon at sa muling pag uusap nila, naroroon pa rin ang nararamdaman nilang kapwa sa isa't isa.
Hindi ko lang alam, kung ang nararamdaman ni Francesca ay alam ni Robert. Napakahirap isipin. Nag e exist nga ba talaga ang ganito?? Kung mababasa mo to....comment ka nga pls!

remember this song...your last song for Francesca
HIDING INSIDE MYSELF

I've been so alone all my life
I couldn't give my heart to anyone
Hiding in myself was a man
Who needed to be held like everyone

The days moved into years
I look for warmth between the tears
It never ever found me
Never ever found me
Yes, I did seem to grasp at straws
They surely broke all the time

So I hid inside
(Till) I almost died
Yes I hid inside and I cried
A loving heart in a sensitive man
Hiding inside myself

Then you came out of nowhere
I could not believe my heart
I didn't know how to tell you
Didn't know where to start
I know you understand

When I hid inside
I almost died
Oh, I hid inside and I cried
A loving heart in a sensitive man
I know you'll understand



"True love is possible, even in the scope of a life of compromise, and in the middle of nowhere, on the far side of any age..."

The Big July Move

Finally....
I eased my way to the new pad. My own little place. Bringing me a new life, new beginning and whoooaaaa...... "single." ;p
For few more days, I will be leaving the good `ol house. Since the big ugly news was dropped on my face, I was never comfortable living here. I just wanted to pack up and leave right away if I could...pero eto na, sa wakas, makakalipat na rin.
Wag na lang tatanungin kung ano ang nasa loob ng utak at puso ko. They're still not coordinated. hahahahahahha

MY big take after all this stuff that's happening in my life....I finally don't rebel against Him anymore. Wala akong panalo talaga. It may sound like "stereotype" pero I've been asking for His guidance. As I open the bible, maganda ang rhema na binibigay nya sa akin....and it's a good relief.
If this is a big lesson for both of us to learn, then I've learned a lot...the hard way.
Psalms 71