Discombobulate

I'm having a brain dead moment. There are certain things in life that I still don't understand. One, why I remain stupify. Two, why I (sic) just simply don't get it. I'm probably what they call "mentally challenged" in medical world. In a nice way in my own dialect it'll be "kulang ang pag-iisip." In my own lingo and to the rest of the women out there......"ISA KANG TANGA!" These are the questions that boggles me. Why is it that certain men, are not satisfied with their own slice of cake, but instead, they want the entire piece. Or they just can't burn their freaking bridges. I'm good in burning my own bridge, kasama na ang small town that way there will be absolutely, zip, nada, communications. But hey, they know the ways on how to get on to your nerves and track you down, and trying to lure you back to them, and then, suddenly it'll hit them na..... "arrgghhhh, I can't decide, I need more time." I will give you more freaking time. You need space? I'll give you space, in fact I will give you the entire earth so you can have your fucking space. Space your face! I say one is enough, two is too much. You ask for it, DANG, you got it.
Alam mo, you have so much time in your hand..... so much, that you are not satisfied of what you have right now, instead, you found ways to make yourself more confused.
I am very sorry that it has to end this way......and that you made a fool out of yourself. I am sorry that we can't go back in time. We just got to move on.
I'm done with my crying spells.
I've completely totally accepted the whole fact that you are an........................."Idiot" and it has no cure for it. The sad part of this is that, you will actually breed, and that you will actually grow and multiply.
I'm done using this stage, and I have spoken.

HUH??!!! Ano ito?

Only Love
Message:
I'm over you somehow
Only love knows how I have the strength to move on again...
The more you put me down'...Cause love knows how it gave me the strength to move on.
Spent so many days wondering what's my chances
I never thought I'd be alone.
When all I really needed was answers.
For the love that you've given to me. I was in need.
Where we are where we're at...
Boy I could not see every night that I cry,
I needed you here by my side.
But now I'm over you.
Had to use my mind,
Couldn't use my heart I didn't wanna see us apart.
This vision is so clear to me
That we were not meant to be
I couldn't see the desire inside
wouldn't let me be every night.
That I cry...I needed you here by my side.
But now I'm over you.
Life goes on until the new beginning.
Set me free from all of these feelings.
Now I can see that love's no guarantee.
That's why I hold it all inside of me only love knows how.....



dyek dyek....ano to? kanta ba to tula or isa na namang biktima.
05/28/05 edited version: langya ka dyek timely manner ang banat mo dito. dayum girl....I know you are reading my blog. Malunod ka sana sa pitshy pitshy at sapin sapin. Miss ko na talaga. Baka maligaw ako ng pilipinas....madaming kwento...kwentong kasagingan at kabaklaan at kung anu ano pa...you are not going to believe it. I promise I swing by and bigla na lang ako mag papatawag na naman ng EB. Hows July kaya for a rainy EB sa dampa Libis!

BH

No its not about Broken Head or a Broken Hynie it's all about being broken hearted. A lot of people had been asking me how it feels like (how dare you to ask me noh... kala mo sa akin, expert na talaga....OO na, expert na nga!) to be in that situation. Man, it's gut wrenching ( sa kakasuka dahil hindi makakain) ulcerogenic, mass production of eye mo, with free eyebag on the side, a taste of a soda in a can with cigarette ashes (nakalimot akong natistisan ko pala ng abo ng sigarilyo ko eh) and feel ko I want to have an instant death . Kaya lang hindi ko kaya ang last part eh....instant death. Duwag ako.
I remembered the good `ol days ng malaman kong ang first love ko eh nakabuntis (he claimed a one night stand affair daw) after na hindi nya mahintay matapos ang bakasyon ko after board exam. A guy whom I cared so much tapos eh, nag bakasyon sa `pinas nakakita ng old crush dineny to death ako til well.....sila na. And so on and so forth and so forth and........
Naalala ko noon ng may nag sabi sa akin na....."kapag daw umuulan sa pinas, tanda daw ito ng pag iyak ng kalawakan kasama na rin daw ang pag palahaw nya." `Nak ng teteng george! Dinramahan mo pa ako. You are one son of a FART!
Sabi nga ng karamihan "Where did I go wrong?" Tanong ko rin sa yo ito, "saan nga ba ako nag kamali?" "Ano ang aking pag kukulang?" Bakit hindi ka makapag hintay sa time frame na binigay ko sa yo? Hindi naman ako nag bigay sa yo ng pag subok na kinakailangan mong makipag sapalaran pa o lulusutan. Pang unawa lamang ang aking hinihiling. Mahirap nga ba itong dinggin?
Ang lahat ng ito ay isang pag hihinagpis at itatago na lamang natin sya sa pangalang Brenda.......
Brenda Mage