The Essence of Depression

After several months of confinement, I now have the guts to cut throat....errrr....to start blogging.
In the past few months, I've been in a topsy turvy situation. And finally, after several seething moments, I've come to realize that this is not the end of my time nor a call for ambien or anti depressant overdose. I must admit, today I have to call in sick to analyze what kind of life I've been to, and what the heck did I just do. I laid awake all day today, thinking over and over again what part of my relationship went wrong. OH yes, I remembered. I'm probably one of those bitches that gives up easily on people whom I cannot trust. And I just don't wanna go back. I JUST DON'T. Why should I? I am the one running my life. Not them. I deserve to be happy and not miserable.
Ahhhhh...thank God for all my friends who stuck with me all through out. May I say that you are all special. Pag namatay nga lang ako, wala akong kayamanan na ipapartida sa inyo!!! nyehehehehehehehe.

I remembered that lingering song in my head that goes " I did my best, but I guess my best wasn't good enough..."
Kaya pala when he left, ito rin ang kinakanta ko sa banyo, "Alam kong meron ng iba, sa kilos mo'y nadarama, mukhang ako ay kinalimutan mo na wala ng masasabi di ba."

One thing I can say is that.......It would take time for me to cope up with all these changes happening in my life, but I bet yah..... I am a better person than before.

PS: Special mention kay Bon Sai, letche ka....meron ka pang nalalaman na "if u feel tirapyutik den by ol mins...." YOUR PEYS!!!!