Ugh!

During dinner at Tokyo One, I have this nagging question to my husband, "why I’ve fallen head over heels to Edward Cullen." His answer was a mild smirk on his face (It puzzled me so much that I’ve re-read again the entire 4 books on the course of 2 days, finding myself what the heck is the matter with me). Guessing that I won’t be able to get a good response from him, I ate my beef hibachi ravenously, to his surprise was…unusual. I, for the fact, don’t eat a lot. I take that back. I like sugary stuff. The very reason why we don’t eat out a lot now. I drink my calories. I am a hopeless Coca-Cola addict. I’d rather drink coke than to eat.

Finishing off my dinner with a cup of crème Brule, my eyes still engaged to his nonchalant choices of sushi and sashimi. Argh! Why am I acting this way towards a character of a book, but he can’t answer to my meaningless question, much more… bothered!

He stood up, and went to get his dessert. I am still spooning mine mindlessly. He came back and handed me another crème brule, and said, “Your favorite. Have some more. I know you don’t eat as much as I do, so please justify the reason why were spending money for this dinner!”
And I choke. Now I know the answer. Why I am so into this stupid Edward character.

I was a Bella with more turbulent painful experience. When my hubby came into my life, everything was wiped away and completely changed my perspective. I used to be clouded by any nonsensical acts. At my young age, he introduced me to subtle moral sense that I’ve lost thru the years of past psychological and mental abuse. He has this “flat affect” attitude to my overly sensitive issues such as age & weight limits, and gave me non approval responses to my paranoid views of social acceptance.
What about virtues of chastity? Smack right on my face when we were still seeing each other. In a world where I live in, (I really thought that he was impo---t...crap! too much info!) it is but normal to… you know, not to be precisely specific here…please do not embarrass me, but it’s true.

And just like the character of that book, we have portrayed bits and pieces of their life, sans eternal damnation.

“I couldn’t see my future without having you in my life,” he said, many moons ago.
My gay flip lingo agile response… “Charing!”
Di ba ang drama!!